Ho hum.

So, I realize that I've already written once today, but, I just wanted to say that I really miss my lovey Ryan...A lot.

Today when my friends and I went to the temple we got to watch a couple all dressed up in their wedding attire and realized that they were taking their wedding photos. *sigh* Us girls were really wishing that we were the ones wearing that white dress, sitting in the grass next to the men we love, with our heads on their shoulders never having to be apart from them again.

You know, so many people have given me crap about waiting for Ryan while he's on his mission. But, seriously, it is SO much more than just "waiting for a missionary". I'm waiting for the man who has all my love and my whole heart. I'm waiting for him because I love him so much more than I ever thought I could love anyone. I'm waiting for him because I KNOW without a shadow of a doubt that we are meant for each other. I know that God meant for us to be together and I am so grateful that he helped us find each other. I know that we're going to get married and I cannot wait to get to be with him forever!! =D I honestly can't see myself with any other guy. To be honest, guys other than Ryan and family members just gross me out these days lol. You would think that after 9 months of him being gone I'd at least be a tiny bit attracted to guys right?...wrong. Even guys that I would have thought were attractive before I found Ryan are just...idk, they're just "blah" to me now haha. I don't know if that makes any sense, but it makes sense in my head. All I know is that Ryan is the only one I've got my sights on and he's the only one my sights will be on FOREVER...haha. Ooo wee.

You know, I started this post in a really down mood. Whether I let it show or not, I was in a really sucky mood and my heart was aching for him to be here with me. I was just missing him terribly. But now, after thinking about us and the knowledge that I have that we're supposed to be together, my spirits have been lifted and I am in a much better mood. I am just SO thankful that Heavenly Father has blessed me with this WONDERFUL guy!! I'm so lucky that he has the same values and beliefs as I and that he loves the Lord so much that he willingly promised 2 years of his life to help do His work..I'm so grateful for his strong testimony and that instead of bringing me down in any way he LIFTS me and helps me strive to be a better person...Only 15 more months (+ a few days) and I'll get to be with him again!!!....He is more than worth the wait.